"Poor decisions"

I have gestational thrombocytopenia, SPD, and gbs.I've just found out I'm bleeding under skin as I've just been to my gp after coming out in blood marks on my arms. My last baby born at 38 weeks i had non of these symptoms heavy nose bleeds and bleeding under skin and had thrombocytopenia and gbs. I was told by the consultant here at jessops when my platelets became lower than 100 I'd be referred and induced due to my haemorrhage when platelets were at 86 post natal. Just had a call this morning saying 79 was my count and to call jessops to be seen.So after non stop calls and anxiety attacks not wanting to have a repeat of last time I now have to go for a liver function test tomorrow and then weekly blood test until basically it's left too long and I bleed again but I've had an appointment for the hematologist on 25th as this is the earliest! I feel like I'm been ignored and don't want to be left to late as my platelets are lower than what they were when I bled heavy with my first and I had her at 38 weeks gestation the same weeks I'll be on the 25th. I feel like I've had false promises as I had this last time told to wait til they got to below this amount and then this and again it's getting lower and lower. I don't want to be holding baby number 2 while I bleed out and beg the paramedics not to let me die which happened with my daughter it was very traumatic. My midwife who is lovely has told me to try not to stress as she knows I'm very anxious and also the gp saw today how distressed I am and tried to speak with the jessops team but with no joy. I feel like I'm going to be put at risk again like before and they see me as just a pain instead of a very scared mum who has good reason to be after last time.