"Being Bi-Polar"

About: Advocacy Support Cymru University Hospital Llandough / Mental Illness

(as the patient),

In 2010 I had Psychosis the rarest form of Post natal depression, 2 months into giving birth. I went into the mother and baby unit at UHW for one night initially and was then placed in Llanfair, Gorwel ward. After 14 days I went back into the mother and baby and was under section 3 until end of January 2011. In February 2012 I came off all medication and almost lost my job and my husband. During the summer in 2012 my eyes started sparkling again and I was enjoying my boy like I missed out on when I was in hospital. When I went back to work in September 2012 I was too hyper, to emotional and all my work colleagues were concerned. I started to relapse, I was pushing myself beyond my limitations because I was finally recieving praise in work, I felt like part of the team again but my marriage was failing and I couldn't sleep.

So when blood tests said nothing was wrong I called my cpn who thought I was BI polar. I admitted myself in October because I couldn't deny that I suffer with manic depression anymore, I couldn't run from it, it is genetic in me I lost my father because he had it and no one knew, my sister is physically and mentally disabled. Putting myself back in Llanfair is one of the hardest things I have done, I had too leave my boy crying, I was petrified but I did it because I trusted the nurses and nursing assistants that got me out of there last time.

But this time I had physical symptoms that were ignored because I am diagnosed bi-polar, I was placed under section 3 when I was voluntary and section 2 28 days would have been plenty. I claimed to be so physically ill that I didn't know I had a mental illness. I didn't have a advocate the first time but this time I needed. one. I lost all my leave and couldn't even go to church over the Christmas period. I am discharged now but still on the sick, nobody could believe how I was treated by certain doctors, going to university doesn't make you qualified in physical and mental illness you have to experience it. I still have physical symptoms which are unsolved, it is not right to link physical and mental health because they are two different things. I hope by writing this it helps people realize that just because you have a mental illness, doesn't mean it is in your head when you are in physical pain, you know your own body regardless of if you have a mental or physical disability.

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Response from Advocacy Support Cymru

Thanks for writing about your experience. We agree that its important for people to have both their physical and mental health concerns taken seriously. Hopefully you found the advocacy support you had helpful.

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