"Lack of care by medical team"

I was admitted to the department of psychiatry, Eastbourne. There I was ignored and spent many hours crying in my room, tormented by my experiences.

At this point I wasn't taking any medication, having been stopped from taking clozapine on admission. I had also been stopped from taking my anti depressant. I requested to be put back on clozapine but the medical team wanted to titrate me 3 times faster than normal. As a result of this, I was often to dizzy and ill to get out of bed and the staff ignored that too, assuming I had "been sleeping a lot. " I asked to be taken off the clozapine and was not on any medication for about 2 weeks.

I asked the doctors what I had to do to get out of hospital and they said I had to agree to take some medication. In desperation, I agreed to take risperidone, a medication I have taken before that has not worked in the past but has minimal side effects for me. Within 1 week of starting risperidone, I was given overnight leave for 2 weeks, with the condition to return to the hospital every 3 days to be given more leave.

At no point did anyone ask if the medicine had had any effect or if I was feeling better. I was discharged after these 2 weeks. I was also not offered an anti depressant even though my moods were continuously low for the entirety of the admission (6 weeks) and I had constant suicidal thoughts.

I still feel the same, if not worse at times, as I did when I was admitted. It seems to me like the medical team just wanted to put me on a medication and discharge me without bothering to check if I was any better or not.