"Felt I wasn't a serious enough case to be taken seriously"

After being assessed by various people, I was finally passed on to the CMHT. I felt hopeful that this might finally lead to me being able to at least take a step towards recovery.

I saw two people, and would like to point out that they were perfectly nice and I'm not trying to imply that any one person is responsible for me feeling disappointed with the (lack of) treatment I've received so far.

I'm basically left feeling that, while my problems are having a huge impact on my life right now, I'm just not a serious enough case because I haven't made any recent attempt on my life.

I also felt that my thoughts of suicide were brushed off as nothing to worry about, despite being far more intense and having put more planning into it as a possibility than I ever have in the past. It's worth mentioning though that this is probably partly my own fault, as I have trouble communicating those thoughts to people.

Basically, I went in feeling hopeful yet realistic - I know there are waiting lists and such, but left feeling lower than I thought possible and feeling as though my only options are to carry on living the way I am, which isn't an appealing thought, or just taking the plunge and ending it myself.