"Cancer, Diabetes, Depression and Unemployment"
About: Sussex Partnership NHS Foundation Trust / Working age mental health care (community) Sussex Partnership NHS Foundation Trust Working age mental health care (community) BN13 3EP
Posted by Statistical Rarity (as ),
I decided to seek help for depression about a year ago following my mother's diagnosis with lung cancer. I've been diabetic for the best part of 24 years and have never been conscious of any other sort of existence.
I was eventually referred to The Bedale Centre in Bognor Regis, where after initial screening consultations I agreed (out of desperation) to undergo a course of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. The course started in January and ended last month. In March I lost my job and in June my mother passed away; in short my experience of therapy has left me even more confused than when I started it, despite my best efforts. I feel like I've lost a lot of trust and respect for the team at The Bedale Centre, since I've given them a lot of information and received little feedback in return. Most of the therapy involved me filling out questionnaires and reading, which I did willingly - hoping that I might get help. What I got was more confusion and a deep-seated anger that I feel unable to dissipate, despite trying Mindfulness meditation at the request of my therapist.
During session my anxiety levels were exponentially increased and my diabetes control has suffered as a result of it. Reluctantly, I let my therapist attend one of my diabetes appointments, but that yielded little from my point of view.
I haven't received any feedback from my therapist's mentor since my last session, and I've grown increasingly anxious and angry. On top of this I believe that I may have Asperger's Syndrome - I've gone to my GP to be referred for a diagnosis but am once again waiting for The Bedale Centre to follow-up. Whilst I appreciate that there is always a time-lag, I feel unable to cope. I've worked exceptionally hard on my therapy and I am yet to feel any benefit from it...