"Being let go."
About: Cambridgeshire and Peterborough NHS Foundation Trust / Adult mental health Cambridgeshire and Peterborough NHS Foundation Trust Adult mental health CB21 5EF
Posted by fremma (as ),
When I first moved to Cambridge I had already been suffering from an eating disorder for over a year, with gradually worsening behaviours. Before that I had been self harming for over a decade. Even then I was unwilling to seek help, as I know many in similar situations are, however being pushed by friends, I made tentative contact with my gp, who diagnosed me with depression and sent me off with a prescription for flouxetine.
After another year in which I returned to my gp at intermittent intervals, not finding the prescription particularly useful, I eventually was referred to the adult eating disorders service. After a wait of approximately 6 months, I had an assessment, diagnosing me with bulimia nervosa. I then waited for 2 years on the waiting list. With no support whatsoever in the meantime.
When I finally as contacted again, I had a few sessions alone with a therapist, before that therapist left the service and I was transferred to a different therapist. A few sessions after that change I was included in a new eating disorders group. None of this particularly helped, and once in the group I had little further contact alone with the therapist. After some 20 sessions, the group dissolved anyway, and my time allowed in the service was up. No attempt was made to really assess me as to whether I had actually improved, and no further contact encouraged after discharge. Any attempt by me to say that I hadn't improved was met with the comment that many people don't actually improve until after the therapy has finished. Which felt rather like a 'so what? you'll be out of our hair'.