"Not far enough along in my therapy for this course to help me"

I attended one session every month (30 mins) with a counsellor. For me the sessions were too far apart and too short to have a lasting impact on my health. I became more depressed and was referred to a mindfulness course while waiting to see a counsellor every week. The mindfulness course would have helped me if I was further along with the therapy, but as I am still waiting for therapy I feel too much anxiety to relax in the sessions, although I do feel they are good for the majority of the group who seem to be already on the other side of therapy.