"Poor treatment in Mental Health hospitals"
About: Dorset Healthcare University NHS Foundation Trust / Adult mental health Dorset Healthcare University NHS Foundation Trust Adult mental health BH1 4JQ Dorset Healthcare University NHS Foundation Trust / Inpatient mental health care Dorset Healthcare University NHS Foundation Trust Inpatient mental health care BH1 4JQ
Posted by Little Laura (as ),
I have been recieving help from the Community Mental Health team for amost 2 years (since i was 16). it was a long process to get into the system despite seeing the GP on many occasions from the age of about 13 ( i was self-harming, attempting suicide, and barely eating til i lost over a qurter of my body weight). I understand that it is very difficult for teenagers to be given medication or even be taken seriously, but i was offered counselling and this never came. it was only when i was 16 and confided in a teacher at school that i was put into foster care (things at home were bad) and i was referred to the CMHT. I have tried very very VERY hard to get on and live a normal life but failed my A levels as was very unwell and recieving day treatment on th psychiatric ward. when i was 17 i was raped and then miscaarried which was the last straw and i couldnt cope. i was very depressed, ran away and made numerous suicide attempts, until being admitted to hospital as an inpatient. i was in tehre for about 4 months and had my 18th birthday. Looking back at my treatemtn whilst in there, i am appalled...i would sit on my bed in my room all day and cry. There was one nurse who worked nights who all the patients were scared of because she shouted at everyone. i had no apettite and did not eat; when i came out i had lost about 3 stone. No-one really talked to me or looked after me the nurses would sit and gossip and read magazines unless they were approached. Some of the nurses hadnt even read my case notes or didnt know which medication i was taking, so when i woke up screaming in the night from having a nightmare i got told off. it made me feel worse. i tried to run away when my mum phoned one night (she lives abroad and it was her partner who abused me) as i was so upset and felt so alone, and all i got was a telling off from the nurse. When i was discharged, i felt as if nothing had changed i only felt worse. i was on so much medication which wasnt being regularly checked, and within a couple of weeks of being out i overdosed again and ended up in general hospital.
I just feel that if the treatment had been better nad if someone had just cared about me and listened to me then i would have felt more ready to come out (even tho i didnt want to be in there). I tried so hard in there becuase i wanted to be discharged, e.g gettin up in the morning and making myself DO SOMETHING even tho i didnt want to be alive. I was trying very hard but no-one in there was helping me.
i have decided to do things myself now, im at college, have a job and have passed my driving test. but i still struggle but i am reluctant to ask for help as i just feel like a number on a wage slip and not a person. it makes me sad that some people are in and out of these hospitals for years or even their whole lives, as you get institutionalised and coming out is scary. But i worry that without proper treatment e.g. just being left alone, ignored, it may only make people worse.