I am in recovery following a diagnosis of Severe Anxiety and Depression and a spell on Lilac Ward at Tolworth Hospital. A significant part of that process has entailed attending various local Recovery College courses based at Springfield Hospital in Tooting. I have written many poems detailing my breakdown, hospitalisation and ongoing recovery. These were inspired by what I learned at the Recovery College. I'll let them speak for me:
METTA BHAVANA
(The Recovery College)
1.
plant a seed
of loving kindness
in your heart
feed it
with tranquility
till it flowers
with strength and confidence
in a golden light
into love
2.
paint a picture
of a good friend
in your mind
in bright colours
feel your connection
the light of your heart
flowing into theirs
send them
loving kindness
3. & 4.
declare neutrality
towards someone
you don’t know very well
then escalate
but don’t hate
someone you dislike
treat them equally
wish them health
and happiness
5.
grow the flower
into a forest
the picture
into a panorama
your friends
mere acquaintances
and even enemies
the world the universe
send them loving kindness
love
GUEST HOUSE
(Jalāl ad-Dīn Muhammad Balkhī also known as Jalāl ad-Dīn Muhammad Rūmī and more popularly in the English-speaking world simply as Rumi (1207–1273), was a 13th-century Persian poet, jurist, theologian, and Sufi mystic)
This being human is a guest house
Every morning is a new arrival
A joy, a depression, a meanness
Some momentary awareness comes
As an unexpected visitor
Life is a mirror
In which I am reflected
Looking back at me
I don’t recognise myself
But I like what I see
Welcome and entertain them all
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows
Who violently sweep your house
Empty of its furniture
Still, treat each guest honourably
He may be clearing you out
For some new delight
The mirror cracked
Split my face in two
I pick up the pieces
And build anew
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
Meet them at the door laughing,
And invite them in
I am here
What’s past is done
I am now
The future may never come
Be grateful for whoever comes,
Because each has been sent
As a guide from beyond
I face forward
I would rather mourn
For what I do
Than what I haven’t done
THE ENEMY
Only a fool
Fights a battle
He cannot win
So said Genghis Kahn
And he knew
What he was talking about
So sheath your sword
Lest it become
Cruel and corrupted
Confuse your enemy
With courtesy
Welcome him
Do not give him
The satisfaction
Of contesting him
Kill him
With kindness
WIRE WALKER
I walk the high wire
From where I was
To where I need to be
Who I was
And who I want to be
Can’t turn back
Must face forward
Walk away from the Moon
And towards the Sun
And on one end
Of my balancing pole
Sits a devil
And on the other
There is an angel
And they both look like me
If one takes flight
I will overbalance
And fall into the void
I must accept them both
Embrace them equally
Impartially
Me
"Poems about my recovery"
About: Springfield University Hospital (London) Springfield University Hospital (London) London SW17 7DJ Tolworth Hospital Tolworth Hospital Surbiton KT6 7QU
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