"Camhs being unhelpful"

I was with the Nottinghamshire Camhs service (Thorneywood) for over a year, until I was recently discharged for 'not engaging'. I'm not happy with this because I did not want to be discharged and had made that very clear along with my parents. I feel that discharging me was the wrong thing for camhs to do as I am not in a good place right now and had just taken an overdose shortly before being discharged.

I always tried my best to communicate in the sessions but my mental health often prevented me from doing so. I thought camhs would be more understanding of this and not discharge me after a year of saying that they wouldn't give up on me.

As well as being with the tier 3 camhs team, I spent 2-3 months as an inpatient in the thorneywood adolescent facility. As an inpatient, I found that I was able to communicate very well to the nursing staff, as well as the nurse I saw in the outpatient team. I think that being an inpatient helped me a lot and I felt a lot happier whilst I was in there and for a short time after being discharged.

Since being discharged, I have taken a couple of overdoses and have been to a and e 2-3 times for feeling suicidal.

I have had follow up appointments from the camhs outpatient team that have been no help what so ever. They have also told me that I would never go back to inpatient because it would not help me. However, it is obvious that nothing else is helping me, and I am not safe. They also said that when I take overdoses, they are going to tell my local hospital to give me the treatment and then discharge me, without a doctor seeing me and giving me an assessment. I think this is wrong of them, and with no help I am probably going to end up dead or in an adult inpatient facility as I am not getting the treatment needed. I have been told on a number of occasions that an adult hospital is not a place I would like to be in and should avoid it, so I really do not like the idea of it and would really not like to go to one. However, I am scared that this might happen because of my constant suicidal feelings.

Basically, camhs have been absolutely useless for me, and have not took the right steps I helping me since inpatient. I feel misunderstood, given up on, and like a bit of a joke really.