"Crisis care and the impact of cuts in funding"
About: Devon Partnership NHS Trust / Crisis resolution Devon Partnership NHS Trust Crisis resolution EX2 5AF
Posted by gianetti (as ),
My recovery coordinator was away for a month or so…I had my final meeting with her today as she is leaving. Before she left she recommended that I called the duty worker or the crisis team if I had a crisis.
I was supposed to receive an extra two hours direct payments a week as well for two months because my twice weekly therapy had stopped and I have extreme anxiety and flashbacks around the christmas period. My parents are elderly and very unwell. My father nearly died in hospital, it brought up many issues for me.
The schism of wanting to care for them and my nightly and sometimes daily flashbacks from child hood sometimes evoked choking and vomiting and worse in terror. The flashbacks take me back to when I wanted to die as a child, sometimes I harm myself sometimes to the point of wanting to die and/or risking my life.
I called the mental health team and was assured on 3 occasions that the duty worker would get back to me but no one did. I also phoned the crisis team who told me they had no practical solutions and to call samaritans. My additional direct payments were not sent.
I overdosed on sunday. I explained all this to my recovery coordinator and she explained about cuts etc and encouraged me to make a complaint but said she would not be there to support me because she was leaving next tuesday. I asked when I would next see someone and who that would be. She told me she did not know and couldn't honestly know if she would find out.
I told her these were not new experiences for me since under mental health "care" and such appalling crisis care is actually counter productive and could have killed me if had not got a background in professional care myself…(The adult in me can at least rationalise I deserve a better service than this)…. but it still makes me feel utterly worthless and alone with the indifference of a system that is in itself in crisis and unable to help and could have killed me…. or someone else in a similar state!