"Ignored and left in a+e"

I can't seem to get any care now from the Lister either X-ray pathology or accident and emergency. When I attend my treatment is not equal to that of how patients around me are spoken to or cared for. I have severe borderline personality disorder from severe physical and sexual abuse as a child. It is very hard to control my emotions especially in a hospital hostile environment after taking an overdose or cutting badly and feeling suicidal. I recieved

Very poor care and understanding yesterday in a +e after a? TIA on Friday evening and after attending a+e yesterday (Saturday) I received such horrid care and had some comments said to me out loud by a nurse I did not know - said in front of a packed waiting room filled with patients and their supporters all receiving a very very different level of care to me. I was alone as always when I come to the Lister and A+E - always alone - whether it's with an overdose or feeling suicidal or having cut through tendons or deep cutting my arms, I was left on a trolley last year in the corridor and was found having fallen off the high trolley onto the tiled floor fitting from a overdose by a dr who heard happened to see. I never complained, was covered in bruises in the next few days from the fall, I could have - there were enough witnesses to it and I was in Rescus for the next several hrs. I am always alone as I have no family or friends -

I live alone and have never smoked never taken any illegal drugs never had any partners or any poor messed up children as I NEVER EVER want to harm ANYONE even unconsciously - I was harmed so so terribly as a child. I achieved A levels despite such terrible abuse at home and severe bullying all day at school because I wasn't like the other kids. I have lived in Hitchin my entire life and the Lister is my local hospital. I am off the mental health scale for suicide risk and after last night after taking an overdose while in the MAJORS waiting room filled with such a lot of noise from laughing chatting patients and families - curled up in a corner in tears - not knowing whether to just make that overdose final as I am not wanted there as a patient - I told a nurse and they didn't want to know so I left in tears and the security staff watched me off the premises. I rang this morning to A +E to find out a contact name of a manager of A +E so that my GP could write to that person to arrange a meeting with them, myself the Gp And my CPN so we can see if there is any future care from the department and a way they feel we can move on as the care is now non existent and I feel at least worth more than horrid comments said by nurses over the /6months said aloud so others hear and can see me. My call was not wanted and I received no help and that was with me being so polite and positive. The call was abruptly ended by them. I just want to know if I am going to receive any level of reasonable care at the Lister - I am a human being not an animal