"begging for help"

About: Ailsa Hospital / General Psychiatry

(as the patient),

get the feeling that doctors all want patients of methadone now. so I take diazepam to calm me down and get a sleep as I can't even go in shower without it. all I want is my life back to normal and I hate taking diazepam and I don't wish to end up depending on diazepam.

I got raped by another man in prison. This doctor has saw me once and said I don't need any antidepressants. The rapist got freed the way I feel is all I want to do is kill him or myself. if this doctor insists on treating me this way as he has told me stop the benzodiazepines or they will stop my methadone prescription. its not fair if the doctor puts me back on what I was on I would never take benzodiazepines again please.

I am just so ashamed at being raped in prison a feel so low at times I could jump of a bridge. now I have this doctor again soon and I am terrified that I will be bullied off my methadone as without that I would be better dead or in prison especially now this rapist is walking the street. all I want is to go back on medication that worked for a good few years.

I don't sleep and if I do I have constant nightmares and am prone to sleep walk. I have told this doctor all of this but feel as if I just get threatened that I will be taken off my methadone. thank you I only hope you can help please I am begging your help

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Response from Fiona McQueen, Nurse Director, Nurse Directorate, NHS Ayrshire and Arran

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Dear tubs1980, I'm so sorry to hear you're not getting the support from our staff that you need. I really want to help you get your life back and want to make sure we're offering you all the support we can. You can contact us through Patient Opinion, or Kate Macdonald can arrange to put you in touch with someone to see what we can do to help. Kate can be contacted on 01292 513607. We will do what we can to help.

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Response from Derek Barron, Associate Nurse Director, Mental Health Services, NHS Ayrshire and Arran

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Dear tubs1980, I'm sorry to hear that you feel your are being bullied/threatened unless you comply with the medication regime - as a service we do not consider this an appropriate way of working with someone. I am meeting with the Clinical Service Manager from our Addiction Service at 12.00hrs today - I will ensure I speak to him regarding your comments. Can I ask that you contact Kate, as noted above by Mrs McQueen, that way we can specifically address your issues.

Thank you.

Derek

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Update posted by tubs1980 (the patient)

Hi thanks Fiona would it not be possible to speak to you as you have read my story and seem to want to help thank you so much for your response I feel I could actually be getting somewhere now I just hope I can speak to you in person.

Thank you you have given me a glimer of hope

Kind regards

Response from Derek Barron, Associate Nurse Director, Mental Health Services, NHS Ayrshire and Arran

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Dear tubs1980

As I mentioned earlier today I would speak to Peter McArthur, Clinical Services Manager of our Addictions Services, at 12.00hrs.

Both Peter and I read through your comments and Peter is keen to help. It would be helpful if you would contact Kate and she can pass your details onto Peter who will be pleased to make contact with you and find a resolution to the points you have raised.

Thank you.

Derek

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Response from Kate MacDonald, Business Coordinator & Office Manager (interim), Nurse Directorate, NHS Ayrshire and Arran, NHS Ayrshire and Arran

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Dear tubs1980

I am Kate, Fiona McQueen's assistant. I have not heard from you yet, but just to confirm that my number is 01292 513607.

Kind regards

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