"Helped me understand it’s not my fault and I should be grateful that I’m not worthless"
About: Inclusion Matters Liverpool Inclusion Matters Liverpool Liverpool L13 1EH
Posted by Dutch24 (as ),
Five years ago I was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma. Then countless chemotherapy, two bone marrow transplants and one operation.
The worst thing through this ordeal was that it cost me my job and self-respect, because I could no longer provide for my family. My wife took up the mantel of bread winner and provider. It put great strain on her. I know that I shouldn’t complain for I am still here, when so many aren’t.
But last week a cousin of mine died of cancer aged 51, and I didn’t even know he had it but he suffered for some time I believe. I’m two years older than him. Sometimes you feel a sense of guilt that I am still here, although I’m very grateful to be. His funeral is soon.
I suppose life is like that. God knows why but it just seems to work out that way. Inclusion Matters helped to make me understand that it’s not my fault that I should be grateful that I’m not worthless and that I still have something to offer.
I thank them a lot for that.